My best friend....she no longer exists in this world

Siham you were that girl who’s hair flaired in the wind while we ran down the dusty roads in Algeria…remember those ice creams that hisham rammed down our throats. Remember the swing we made on the roof top that we used to create stories and imaginative plays on….remember when we had an argument and you left me a 4 paged letter to say sorry….remember all the beach days we had and do you remember playing crazy chase with the boys in the woods?
I remember this all and much more..do you remember me? You left me and all your loved ones you left this ugly life for me to handle alone…we were bestfriends and we had our charm while racing down Ali’s farm.
Sometimes i break down knowing you were the only one who knew all about me my story my life my cells my heart…you were that ginger algerian girl who was my orange now I’m left with only the rotton fruit in the bowl.
I know that sometimes things are meant to be...but i really thought you were that sister to me. I can't get over the fact that you're gone.
And since i lost you I've realized that you were a precious gem nothing like an ugly stem your beauty shone brighter than as diamond....you had the personality that we all adored you had that heart so big that it touched the clouds. But where are you now when the clouds have become all grey remember the last time i saw you in May.
We used to walk like a pair if only we were closer i would go around and say hey my best friend is a poser.
You never left me alone not once not twice not even when i ate all the rice.
Listen forever i will represent the girl that you were never looked bad in faux fur you had that smile of the century don't mention me.
I gotta let it all out tell them all you had the winning pout because i know that no one will ever say "siham you aint getting your way"
I miss you siham…i hope you still remember.
Best friends forever.

This year i turned to Allah

Lately there have been a lot of stuff that have occurred in my life. Things that i have found difficult to cope with and things that have made me jump from joy. But one thing that has made things a lot more difficult is that i ignored my emotions thinking thats the way to go forward. The deaths of my loved ones have affected me greatly this year. Its always a struggle that i have had to cope with growing up but never did i realize that there are solutions...and one of the biggest ways that helped me cope has been Islam.
This year i turned to Allah for the strength and patience i needed and alhamdulilah i got that.

I realized that although i wasn't the person who would speak their heart out , i could to Allah. I asked for forgiveness and for patience, for knowledge and for good health and of course the right path.

I didn't just turn to Allah when i had problems, i thank him for every smile that appears on my face. I thank him for every drop of water i have used . I thank him for all the good and bad aspects of my life because everything happens for a reason And he is the all knowing.

We all need to stop and realize what a blessing our lives actually are and how blessed we are for the good health and easy access to everything we need.
We must not forget all the innocent people dying from hunger.
We must not forget all the innocent people dying from the struggles

As well as turning to Allah for ourselves turn to Allah for the sake of others and pray for the ummah

Please don't underestimate the beauty of the quran it truly softens your heart as it did to mine

May Allah increase us in knowledge and in Faith and strengthen the Muslim ummah of today.
Ameen

I can't be 100% me in todays society

Recently i've been hearing a lot of people saying "she needs to be herself and stop being fake" but i thought about it and think that there is no way someone can be the true person they are. Now i'm not suggesting that everyone is a fake , the point i am trying to get to is that each person has a limit of being themselves around others. For example younger people and teenagers can't be who they are around their friends because of the expectations an standards that are placed in our community...there are different stages of "cool" which leads to peer pressure , bullying and things as such. 

But i want to take it into more depth, what i'm trying to say is that you can be yourself around people but you will never express 100% you as you might want to please the people you are around. E.g: being fun and joyful but never expressing your feelings as that may ruin your reputation. This may not be the best example as it could be due to lack of confidence but then again lack of confidence comes from not being able to fit in and being scared of the criticism you could receive.

My main point for this is that after years of me saying to people "just be yourself" i've realized that its not that easy to express who you are. People may not agree with this but there is always 1 (or more) things that people are too scared or nervous to do/say/admitt/ way of acting in front of others. Personally around some people i don't talk about the side of me that is caring and only focus on having a good time...you might ask why? well this is because i know their personalities and it may bore them which may lead to other things such as rumours etc.

So please before telling someone to be themselves remember that there is a lot you don't know about that person and the difficulties they may face especially in our generation. I'm writing this from a teenagers point of view because i am a teenager and this is something that affects many but could also be said to others in other ways.


Thanks for reading, feel free to comment 
Twitter: @Hajerella
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Dont judge a book by its cover

So lately I've been more involved in my school work than social networking and if you know me you would know i have a hint of love for fashion. I got told something that really mind boggled me today..I got told or rather some one said to me:
 "oh you dont seem like the sort of girl who would be smart,educational and into politics" At first I was a bit confused so i went on to ask:
 "why would you say that?" Now to be clear i wasn't angry or offended , I decided to take a look at what she said from a different view she replied:
"Well most girls who are into fashion tend to not enjoy school and flop in their education" I laughed at the comment and continued the conversation as if nothing was ever said.

When I got home I though about this and wondered do people really see people who are into fashion as dumb? I think this is the problem with people of course we all judge but is it really necessary for us to judge someone to that extent? can someone not be both smart and into fashion? In my opinion people have got to change their mentality and try to keep it up to date with this generation. To me it degrades people because there is this whole stereotype that clever people are nerdy and ugly and dumb people are into fashion and beautiful. 
My message for this short rant is dont mix looks with personality and achievements...if you dont know someone dont be too quick to judge as it can probably casue down fall to some peoples confidence.

Just my thoughts
@hajerella - twitter 

I have never really understood some people

WOW! I dont think i have posted new blog post in months ! im back :) anywayyy...
I have never really understood some people or maybe its just that i have a different way of thinking. How does one not have a personality of their own? I shouldn’t really question this but i feel sorry for people who have no brain of their own. You tend to have much more fun while being yourself. take me for example , in my opinion i have a lot more fun when i am comfortable with being myself . who doesn’t ? be proud of who you are HONESTLY there’s no shame :)

By the way follow me on tumblr to enter my mind boggling word. ( i love that word ) : http://algerianexpress.tumblr.com/

Be yourself when you blog

<p> I asked an amazing blogger what should i blog about ? She said blog about anything , just be you and people will love it. </p>
<p>I like blogging, but sometimes i have no idea on what to blog about. Writers block. i take inspiration from everything around me , i write up the post and it ends up being saved and not published . So i asked myself "what is your aim with this blog?" I came to a conclusion that is is for nothing other than me sharing my thoughts to the social world.
I don't think i will tweet about a particular subject , i hope the blog reflects who i am and shows me hoe I've changed over time.Also writing is something I enjoy by blogging i am doing what i enjoy most.
 
From now i will be me. That crazy ALgerian girl living in London ? Yeah that's me. That girl who is in deep love with the Arab culture ? Yes thats me . That girl that loves her religion more than anything ? Yeah that's me. That girl that loves being original , random and energetic ? Yeah that's me.

@za3targirl on twitter has inspired me to do this, just to tell you all what my aim is.

-ThatArabGirl
-beace x

Saying goodbye

4 days until i travel to Algeria . And its time to say goodbye to all my loved ones. I feel as if i'm leaving forever although I'm only going for a month. Tears start rolling down my cheeks for i wont be in Contact with them for a month. Tomorrow i will say goodbye to my bestfriend who is literally my sister. Not talking to her for a month will kill me and tomorrow will definitely be an emotional day for me. So this is dedicated to her. I love you like a sister , stay safe during the holidays <3 :D