This year i turned to Allah

Lately there have been a lot of stuff that have occurred in my life. Things that i have found difficult to cope with and things that have made me jump from joy. But one thing that has made things a lot more difficult is that i ignored my emotions thinking thats the way to go forward. The deaths of my loved ones have affected me greatly this year. Its always a struggle that i have had to cope with growing up but never did i realize that there are solutions...and one of the biggest ways that helped me cope has been Islam.
This year i turned to Allah for the strength and patience i needed and alhamdulilah i got that.

I realized that although i wasn't the person who would speak their heart out , i could to Allah. I asked for forgiveness and for patience, for knowledge and for good health and of course the right path.

I didn't just turn to Allah when i had problems, i thank him for every smile that appears on my face. I thank him for every drop of water i have used . I thank him for all the good and bad aspects of my life because everything happens for a reason And he is the all knowing.

We all need to stop and realize what a blessing our lives actually are and how blessed we are for the good health and easy access to everything we need.
We must not forget all the innocent people dying from hunger.
We must not forget all the innocent people dying from the struggles

As well as turning to Allah for ourselves turn to Allah for the sake of others and pray for the ummah

Please don't underestimate the beauty of the quran it truly softens your heart as it did to mine

May Allah increase us in knowledge and in Faith and strengthen the Muslim ummah of today.
Ameen

I can't be 100% me in todays society

Recently i've been hearing a lot of people saying "she needs to be herself and stop being fake" but i thought about it and think that there is no way someone can be the true person they are. Now i'm not suggesting that everyone is a fake , the point i am trying to get to is that each person has a limit of being themselves around others. For example younger people and teenagers can't be who they are around their friends because of the expectations an standards that are placed in our community...there are different stages of "cool" which leads to peer pressure , bullying and things as such. 

But i want to take it into more depth, what i'm trying to say is that you can be yourself around people but you will never express 100% you as you might want to please the people you are around. E.g: being fun and joyful but never expressing your feelings as that may ruin your reputation. This may not be the best example as it could be due to lack of confidence but then again lack of confidence comes from not being able to fit in and being scared of the criticism you could receive.

My main point for this is that after years of me saying to people "just be yourself" i've realized that its not that easy to express who you are. People may not agree with this but there is always 1 (or more) things that people are too scared or nervous to do/say/admitt/ way of acting in front of others. Personally around some people i don't talk about the side of me that is caring and only focus on having a good time...you might ask why? well this is because i know their personalities and it may bore them which may lead to other things such as rumours etc.

So please before telling someone to be themselves remember that there is a lot you don't know about that person and the difficulties they may face especially in our generation. I'm writing this from a teenagers point of view because i am a teenager and this is something that affects many but could also be said to others in other ways.


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